Words Fail Me…

It’s been a year… A harrowing one year since that fateful day….

The pain is still real and biting back the tears is an everyday struggle…

Dearest brother… It’s diffiult for me to pen down about you… That lump in throat and fighting back the tears has been my companion for so long…

Wherever you are; know that we miss you much..

Whatever you may be doing know that we know you miss us too…

Weakly, coming to terms with reality

Wishing you never left

Wrenchingly getting up getting along with life…

Writing about a brother who is more like a son who everyone claims is the doppleganger of my own son……………………………..

How I miss you… Cooking your favorite dishes, making sure the fridge never runs out of juice when you are around, letting me shop for your clothes and the list goes on…

It’s hard and it’s an everyday struggle to convince to my broken heart…………………………….

Thank You Ya Allah, thank you dearest little brother for letting us have you with us for 24 years.. If you ever see this, know that we pray the best for you.. Whaever happened has happened… Your choice was yours…. Telling my son that his uncle is not in Malaysia and not coming back is not easy.. He still remembers his Dhombe and talks about you often.. We, especially Mom and Dad often call your name to him instead of his name 😦

P.S: Those of you who know him, if you have any issues with him or if he has hurt you, please forgive him.. If you do not wish him well, I wish you well and pray that you wish for others what you wish for yourself…

One of the best advice/reminder he gave when I was having a hard time in life was :

We shall surely test your steadfastness with fear and famine, with loss of property, life and produce. Give good news to those who endure with patience -Surah Al-Baqara 2:155- 

 

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